[time]

the concept of time blows my mind.
it is crazy, how in one month,
so much has changed.
in one month,
i continue to learn the concept of contentment,
i understand happy is an emotion,
emotions are flighty,
peace is eternal.
i continue to learn trust is difficult,
and sometimes brutal,
but so necessary.
in a month,
i feel so much more stable than i have been in quite some time.
i'm also aware,
anything can change.
and in one month,
i will be 23.

i am not where i thought i would be at 23.
but that is ok,
i am obviously where God wants me to be.
everything in life happens for a purpose,
HIS purpose,
and I am thankful I am not in control.

time will continue to move
and things will continue to change
and i will continue to ponder
how this happened
when this happened
and i will rest in knowing He is in control.

[you know you're on your phone too much when...]

you start double tapping your computer's space bar in order to get a "."

awesome, thanks iphone.

[deep in the heart of texas]

i got a new tattoo :)
i have been wanting a texas outline for a while,
and last night i decided to go for it!

it's ok if you don't like it,
some do and some don't.
the important thing that matters,
is that i do.

ps. i do not have kankles, as this picture is clearly and falsely trying to portray. haha.

[just because you have a camera...]

does not mean you're a photographer.


this, i know.
however, i still like to pretend
and live in my own world
where my pictures really are cool and interesting.
but, lets be serious,
its only because i have a super amazing phone
with super amazing apps!

but i still created a flickr account.

:)

[fall is coming]

no, that is not what san antonio looks like...or probably will ever look like...
but that's what it feels like.
it has been the most perfect fall weather the past two days.

sunny, cool, crisp.

not a thing i would change.
and although i am going to miss summer dearly,
i am actually excited about seeing fall and winter come!
maybe it has to do with my friends who are all christmas fanatics.

on a yucky note,
its test time!
i truly dislike the classes i'm taking right now:
experimental psychology and the lab.
this is definitely not the part of psychology i prefer,
or wish to study,
and the fact that i have to ace these classes
in order to get into grad school is a little depressing!
wish me luck :)

[serious issues]

i have serious issues.
i need my back cracked EVERY day!
and i normally don't get it everyday,
so it builds up to this awful immense pain.

yesterday,
i drove 15 minutes,
and bought a 6 pack of beer for my friend,
so he could crack my back and massage it.
that's how desperate i was.

was it worth it?
yes. 100%.
however....
the pain is creeping back.

i need a chiropractor, stat!
can't wait till i get insurance....

[transition]

i don't know what that means,
or what it looks like.
but i am praying i make the right decisions.

i am thankful for friends and family
who love me
and more than that,
who love jesus.

****

girls night last night was so much fun :)
my ladies are amazing, and beautiful, and love jesus
and im so glad they are in my life.
we went to alamo drafthouse and watched 'going the distance'
whileeeeeeeee this movie was funny
(charlie from always sunny in philadelphia - my favorite character!)
and i LOVE justin long
(seriously, i want someone with THAT personality!)
there were some raunchy parts!
i had no idea it was rated r until we got to the theatre.
but it was actually a good movie.
joy and i got into an argument about the movie
- don't worry, i won't spoil it about telling you what it was about -
because we both have been in long distance relationships.

differences:
her man loves jesus, mine did not.
her relationship worked, mine did not.
i moved cities, she did not.

so....
i don't know.
she is getting married in decemeber,
and a part of me wants to say she is in happy bliss.
i am healing, and still working through pain.
i don't know that i would ever give everything up for a man again.
of course, again, there is still much healing to be done
and a lot to be said for trust lost,
but i will definitely think twice before entering a long distance relationship,
and especially moving!