in relationships, we find out what love is.
through relationships, we understand who jesus is.
and in the same way,
relationships that are broken can drive us away
from love & jesus.
we were made to belong.
we were made for fellowship
everywhere you look -
people are struggling to fit in, to be a 'part'.
they want to be understood, accepted, and loved despite.
of course, there are those who claim to need no one,
proclaiming and maintaing they are just fine on their own.
these are the ones who keep everyone at a distance...
never for one moment allowing their guard down...
preferring the solitude of their own company.
yet their quality of life,
the quality of their relationships are so poor -
you can always look past
and understand a moment
that pushed them past the vulnerability that relationships require,
to a hardening of the heart.
they still need community.relationships.love.
but they can no longer afford the pain those may bring.
others still go to the opposite extreme.
they look for love
these are the girls who who give their body for love
and the boys who look at numbers to feel worthy.
these girls are desperate for attention,
and are thankful at any man who looks their way.
these boys jump from girl to girl to girl,
never committing, always using words to obtain,
and walking away with their sense of accomplishment.
in the morning,
these souls are the same.
devoid of peace.
and so the cycle of searching begins again,
to drive those ugly emotions away.
and here i sit.
vacillating between the two extremes.
looking for love in people,
knowing Love is all I need....
desperate to be thought of a woman worth far more than rubies,
yet inconsistently portraying myself as another.
living a lifestyle of mediocrity...
unsure if I need, want, or even can change.
contemplating why certain things are deemed 'sinful'
when in reality, many more commonly accepted lifestyles,
are driving hearts away from jesus,
all the same,
if not more.
i see revenge in the man who calls himself a follower of jesus.
i see intentional dishonesty in the respected pastor.
i see gossip in the leaders of christianity.
i see judgement by body of christ.
i see compassion in the whore.
i see unconditional love in the drug dealer.
i see honesty in the lost soul.
i see jesus in the man who calls himself an atheist.
what am i?
all things to all people?
i have so much love to give
i have so much to offer.
are so much more than we believe
so much more than we have allowed.
my heart breaks for
who fall to these extremes of searching
what we were made for
in everywhere it is not.
he will become the man god created him to be.
i have to believe the lord will not forsake him.
i have to believe the lord has a plan for such a unique boy as this.
she will be a great woman of god.
i have to believe the lord will redeem her.
i have to believe the lord will heal her hurt,
and bring her the peace she has been searching for.
i am beyond grateful for those people in my life
who have taken the time to
in my sin.
in my glory.
in my strength.
the lord will not forget his covenenant.
he will not abandon us.
may we grow
may this bring redemption.
may this bring fullness of life.
may this bring knowledge of Love.
8 years ago