8.22.2009

update coming soon...

but for now...
look at beauty captured,
also formally known as engagement pictures...

8.21.2009

today...

is the day a new chapter of my life begins.

i will keep you posted :)

8.20.2009

One More Day....

I move tomorrow!
[gulp]
I'm so nervous.
I still need to finish packing, and cleaning,
pack my car, my dad's car
and then...
drive.

My move in time is 9am Saturday morning!
and God COMPLETELY provided the loan money in time for me to move in!
PTL, thank you Jesus!
I meet my two new roommates for the first time...
and I move into my downsized living space...
yay :)

i tried downloading the layout of my new apt, but it wouldn't work...
so you can click here - i am room a!

I start my new nanny job on Sunday, just meeting the kids and getting 'oriented'.
I'll keep you updated!

8.17.2009

run to win

Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs,
but only one person gets the prize?
So run to win!
All athletes are disciplined in their training.
They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize.
So I run with purpose in every step.
I am not just shadowboxing.
I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should.
Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.
1 cor. 9:25-27

8.14.2009

from another blog...

hm...interesting question.
what do you think?

tartraz: something to ponder

8.11.2009

lets be honest...

if i had a charger for my camera...
i would probably post a lot more often.

:|

hannah is a sweet sixteen

hannah turned sweet sixteen!


this is hannah, in a nutshell.


this is my crazy, amazing, loud and beautiful family.


isn't this cake amazing?? my cousin made it..
(Alma's Cakes - 281.580.5022, hit em upppp!
they do weddings, birthdays, everything!)


me and hannah :)


me and my man. sexxy.

8.06.2009

these would be nice...

for my school assignments.



for my shoes.




for my toiletries.





oh, the container store.
you make me happy.

7.30.2009

||update|| san antone

i got both jobs! yay.

I went to the Michael's interview in the morning,
and was immediately offered the job. I asked for my availibility to switched to the weekends,
so i'll be working either every other weekend both days, or every other saturday or sunday.
I then had an interview with the lady and her family...
and it went well...I just didn't get the greatest vibe.
They asked me to committ...and I just honestly can't say what my future holds!
i'm goin to be a college student -- what if i'm offered an internship?
Anyways, the boys were sweet and everything, in the end,
I just didn't get a good feeling in the pit of my stomach.

After the interview, Vanessa told me about the family that she used to nanny after school...
and, as it all worked out...I got to meet her that day and get an interview!
Tracey was very sweet, and made me feel comfortable right away.
And after a couple of days of waiting...and of playing phone tag with the first family...I got the job with Tracey!
I'm very excited and I can't wait to start working and jump into school!
please be praying for my loans to come through!
i still need money to pay for housing and my credit isn't enough to let me get a loan, even with a co-signer. I really appreciate it, y'all.


the backpacks i want to buy -- which one do you like more??




or

7.23.2009

san antone

i'm going to san antonio tomorrow...
i have two job interviews!

one is with michael's...
the other is with a lady with two boys (7 & 5 yrs) who wants me to watch them 2:45-5:30 every day after school.

i'm excited.
i'll let you know how it goes :)

thank you jesus for opening up the doors.

7.22.2009

acne

help!!!
i'm dying.
haha, not really.
for some reason...since march, my face has broken out beyond belief.
it has NEVER been like this before, not even when i was a teenager!
i had relatively pretty skin for the past couple of years...an occasionally pimple...
right now, i seriously look like a person from a proactiv commercial :(
and if i had a working camera, i'd show you :(
no exaggeration yall.

so...does anyone have any helpful tips???
i've tried proactiv
i'm trying to get back on my excercise routine, drink more water, and cut out high fructose corn syrup.
i've tried cetaphil, and neutrogena, and vitamins...
ahhhhhh.
this is getting bad.
right now, i'm using oatmeal to wash my face, and it seems to be calming down,
not as inflamed,
but its still PAINFUL!

Usually when I tell someone about this, they ask one of three questions:
Do you have more stress in your life? No, not anymore than usual
Has your routine changed? No, not anymore than it has in the past
Have you started a birth control? No, I have not

Does anyone...anyone AT ALL...have any suggestions?
i'm so desperate.

7.20.2009

coworkers & friends

Jess commented on my last note and told me I forgot to mention how much I'm going to miss my coworkers and friends...

The thing is...I didn't forget...
but I can't just simply mention, in passing,
a group of people who have meant so much more to me than a coworker ever could.
Y'all have been confidantes, allies, sisters in christ, prayer partners, and most of all, friends.
Thank you for a year and a half of lunches, inside jokes, boring fridays made fun, and the camaraderie that was brought about by laughter or tears, and sometimes both.
You honestly made awful days bearable,
and sometimes made good days awful ;)
(just kidding...half kidding. hahah)
There were times, that you were my sanity.
Thank you for supporting me through all I went through, good and bad,
for being a listening ear,
and giving me the confidence and encouragement to stand up for myself or TO certain people
(eh...you know who/what i'm talking about haha)
and for tolerating my random bursts of song.
I'll miss you.

I yet I really can't tell you how much I am going to miss you,
because words aren't quite sufficient.

I am so excited to see what God is going to do in your life...you're all in such exciting places!!
People always say they don't want to lose touch, and I hope that we can truly keep that communication.

i love you girls. so so so much.

7.17.2009

hello again

well, its been a month and some odd days since i've last posted.
a lot has happened...

i got my purse stolen while out on lake conroe with a couple of friends!
our truck was busted into, and lots of things stolen.
tony, being smart, had put his stuff in a pocket, so nothing of his was touched...
vanessa got the worst of it...two $500 blank checks (don't ask, haha), $200 cash, her cell phone, and much much more.
it was not enjoyable.
my camera cord was in my purse, and apparently you can only order them online, so I've been without a camera and its made me awfully sad.

Children's Ministry two main events are over and done with :)
VBS and Camp were huge, and I loved it. We had awesome turnouts.
I was able to actually go to camp this year (I got sick last year) and it was so fun --
I had such an amazing group of girls...the Lord really blessed me :)

Definitely got a shocker at the end of camp...got pulled out at midnight on Friday night,
to be told by my boss that she was resigning after 25 years.
Not only that, but her last day was going to be Tuesday.
Her reception was the next Sunday.
Crazy.
I had been planning on going to orientation/vacation for a while, so I wasn't even going to be here for her last day or reception!
I came back, and she was gone.
It will be such a great time for her kids though --
I know they'll love the extra time they'll get to spend with their mom :)

I officially gave my resignation the Monday I came back.
It was a little awkward...
and it kind of still is, haha.
But I am going to be going to school in August.
Yes, to UTSA.
Yes, thats where Tony goes.
But, no, that is not the only reason I am going
(note: i said not the ONLY reason...of course he is a reason :] ).
and i am sooooooo excited.
I've already registered for classes, and I can't wait for them to begin.
My last day at the church will be August 21...
I wanted to stay long enough to make sure they got everything done for Promotion Sunday, with Cindy being gone and everything.
But then, I move August 22.
algjagkja';g;agj;algjka;gjk
so excited.
i can't wait to move into my new apartment!
brand new -- never been lived in!
woohoo!
i've submitted a couple of resumes for administrative positions down there...
please be praying i get a call back from someone and they offer me a job ;)

this week was houston project...
and i went and helped at my dad's church site.
yes, my dad's (possesive) church site.
my dad is the new youth pastor of north central baptist church.
its crazy, and its all on faith, because they have no idea how the Lord is going to provide for them,
but they know that he will.
if you can, please just be lifting up my family in prayer as they embark on this HUGE new journey of life.

and tonight...I am going on mission trip!
I haven't been on an actual mission trip since 2005.
it's with tony's church and we're going to be doing construction on a pastor's house in galveston.
its just for the weekend, but it should be fun :)

6.08.2009

so many emotions.
so many things i can't really say.

im so tired.
a year ago this week...
i was in the same position i am now.
tell me what progress was made?
if anything, i feel as though i've regressed.

my heart hurts so badly...
i know its the same situation over and over
but you can never get used to the pain of being hurt again and again.
how many times can i be wrong?
i'm not the victim, i know that i've hurt and caused as much pain...
but i can't take this anymore either.
im at the point where i have to decide if the relationships are worth the drama.
because my family is the most dramatic family in the history of dramatic families.
[okkk yes that was dramatic too :) ]

in this hurt, i am pushing others away.
i do not know how to handle it,
and i put it out on others in ways that i shouldn't.
but at the same time,
i wish i had a friend in houston.
just one friend, that i could go to, no matter what time of night it was,
and i could go and get a hug, and they would let me cry.
and talk.
and just pour out my heart,
no matter if it wasn't the 'right' things to say.
i miss those friends...

in the midst of this,
i know i am being pushed to god.
but can i be honest?
for the past twenty one years i've been in the same spot..
i'm exhausted.
i dont know what is real and what is not.
yes...i said it.
i work at a church, and i grew up in the church,
and im supposed to be such a godly christian...
but i feel jaded.
judge me if you will,
but that is my heart...
my painful, bleeding heart.

i miss them.
all of them.

5.28.2009

||these are a few of my favorite things||

the past couple of weeks have been really hard.
i've been going through a lot emotionally, as far as family & friends go,
and just where my future is taking me.
anyways, i needed a boost & something that always makes me feel better is thinking about my favorite things!
hahahahahha. ok, i know that was dumb, but seriously...

tanning.
new life green.
va va voom red.
(but not green & red together ;] )
getting massages.
watching movies that make you cry from deep inside.
unconditional love.
singing SO LOUD & OFF KEY and enjoying every second of it.
really good lunches with coworkers!
birthdays.
making tie die t-shirts with my siblings.
laughing so hard your stomach hurts.
a good run.
seeing old friends.
spending time with new friends.
kisses! (chocolate...and the real ones! ;] )
taking pictures...and getting a REALLY good one.
diamonds. (i still don't have any...but i like looking at them!)
getting a new outfit.
BIG PURSES!
pedicures & manicures.
getting my feelings off my chest, and not feeling guilty for it!
the feeling of the sun on my skin....mmmm.
bathing suits.
brownies!
caramel.
love so wonderful it physically makes you hurt :]]
long conversations on the phone.
a good cry.
friends that are there, no matter what.
andddd so much more.


what are some of your favorite things??

||graduations||

it was richard's graduation party saturday...

thats him and his 'friend' haha. she bought him in iphone as a graduation present!
i am jealous, to say the least.


the kids were playing upstairs with josie :)
tony and pj were wrestling and tony got his lip busted! haha.
pj is probably the cutests lil kid i have ever met and i just want to take him home with me!!
he's got an ego tho...he knows he's hot stuff.
my cousin, sydney

my lovaaaaah
cousins, gabi & aser
hannnuuuhhhhh
hannah, my dad, and meeee!

ANDDDD, of course, we got into a dance party.
what do you expect???
we're the andersons, we're mexican, it always happens!
its inevitable. haha.

and we went to jessica's husband, john's graduation....
i only got one picture


the crawfish was spicy!
hahah.

5.07.2009

||psalm 27||

The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?
When evil people come to devour me,
when my enemies and foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
Though a mighty army surrounds me,
my heart will not be afraid. Even if I am attacked,
I will remain confident.

The one thing I ask of the Lord—
the thing I seek most—
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord’s perfections
and meditating in his Temple.
For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
he will hide me in his sanctuary.
He will place me out of reach on a high rock.
Then I will hold my head high
above my enemies who surround me.
At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
singing and praising the Lord with music.

Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!
My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
Do not turn your back on me.
Do not reject your servant in anger.
You have always been my helper.
Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me,
O God of my salvation!
Even if my father and mother abandon me,
the Lord will hold me close

Teach me how to live, O Lord.
Lead me along the right path,
for my enemies are waiting for me.
Do not let me fall into their hands.
For they accuse me of things I’ve never done;
with every breath they threaten me with violence.
Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness
while I am here in the land of the living.

Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

4.30.2009

blog make-over!

Go to Fabulous K's website to get a blog make-over!
She did Jessica's blog and its absolutely adorable!

||lots of things

I got a kitty cat!
I named her Chloe -- she's so precious, but she's definitely a bundle of energy!
She's still in the "i want to pounce everything that moves" stage.
I need to get her nails trimmed, I have claw marks all over my hands.
I got her from a lady off of craigslist and she told me "oh she's litter trained AND she doesn't have fleas"
yeah, she lied to me. about both! chloe was INFESTED with fleas. it was possibly the most disgusting thing. I had to sit there and literally comb them all out.
thankfully, they seem to be gone, and i treated the carpet with borax and they don't seem to have come back! lets pray it STAYS that way!



My parents got a kitty cat!
A week after I got Chloe (who was 7 weeks when I got her), my parents got a 4 week old kitty! They originally thought it was a boy, so they named her Josiah...and when they realized it was a girl, they changed it to Josie! She's very young, and she cries a lot, and she's NOT potty trained and they were having to bottle feed her for a while, but she's super adorable.

Her eyes are still blue-blue!


I got Toms!
My amazing boyfriend bought me some Toms (he got the grey version of mine). I love them, they're so comfortable ! The best part about Toms, is that for every pair of shoes YOU buy, Toms sends a pair to a child in need! Two for one, its incredible. They are canvas/vegan as well :)

Hannah's are gold, mine are red -- yayy.
I got flowers!!
Let's go Administrative Assistants! To celebrate administrative Assistants week, the staff took us out to Rio Ranch -- oh my goodness, the breakfast buffet is A-MA-ZING! I ate like a little pig, and enjoyed every second of it. Rae gave me some beautiful roses and a fun balloon! It's nice to be appreciated!!



the Ed suite girls (minus Christen)

my boss, Cindy Ann Pitts

jess and her display of yummy food

My little brother got to go to "prom"
Since he's homeschooled, they call it a "gala" but its basically the same thing. You dress up, go to some place, eat food, dance, have fun. They should've had an after"prom" just for fun!! This is his girlfriend, Taylor -- she's so cute.

and lastly...
i got in a wreck.
ugh. yes, i know its only been 3 and 1/2 months.
It was raining REALLY hard and i was in san antonio and i was very confused and i thought i was turning, and i then i realized i wasn't, and so i thought i was in the turn/straight lane so i was like "ill just go straight" and then halfway through tony yells "mia, its a turn only!" and BAM! the guy NEXT to me was in the turn/straight lane and i was in the turn only.
he hit me, it was pouring rain when we exchanged infromation.
i was very upset.
my door has to be replaced.
i cry everytime i see my car.
i dont want to talk about it anymore.

onto happier things...
well. i can't tell you :)
you'll find out soon enough.








4.13.2009

||easters||


bella

my parents

bella & alyssa

mimi and the girls

happy easters!
i love easter...so much time with my family.
my favorite part is when we have our huge easter egg hunt.
and, i actually came [--] this close to NOT doing it yesterday!
thanks, mimi, for talking me into it :)
my rear is so sore from bending down, i'm so out of shape!
haha.
ALL the cousins...yes, all...line up at the door at our grandma's,
and we all RUSH outside to gather up as many egg's as we possibly can.
after we have exhausted the resources, we begin a rowdy game of smashing eggs filled with confetti on each others heads.
its hilarious.
my camera died before i could get pictures :(
on a sad side note, my mom hardly said two words to me.
there is a still a huge rift between us..
its really sad, and really painful because we were making so much progress.
i'm not going to end on that :)
so, alyssa (in the pictures above) is 5
and she is a mess.
she kept peeking outside to see where my aunts were hiding the eggs,
and mimi started teasing her and saying "oh, no, you're not going to be able to get eggs anymore, because you cheated!"
and alyssa started getting really upset and really defensive...
so then mimi's mom, my tia lupita, came in and said "well, maybe YOU'RE the one cheating mimi!"
at the moment, you could literally see the light bulb go off in alyssa's head...
her mouth dropped SO FAR DOWN and she says
"yeah, i didn't cheat! see? you're the one that cheated!"
hahahhahaha she jumped onto that so quick.
it was hilarious.
kids say the darndest things.



||happy one year||

happy one year tony :)
i love you so much.
it was an extremely difficult year,
and we went through a lot,
but it was still a ton of fun
and it has been so rewarding.
thank you for being my best friend.
thank you for fighting for me.

4.01.2009

||chaos||

last night,
i went to bed with a heart of chaos.

i have been reading a book called Chasing Daylight (thanks becky!)
and i love it.
it has given me so much food for thought,
and a completely different perspective on things...
some of my favorite parts...

"...Jesus calls us to live a life of unimaginable adventure. It begins the moment we choose to follow him. It is no less than to pass from existence to life" (quotations mine)

"The present moment is where the past and the future collide, and within a moment there is monumental potential. Thats the mystery of a moment. It's small enough to ignore and big enough to change your life."

"The prostitute Rahab, in one defining moment, through one life-altering decision, began a journey that brought her everything she had lost and more than she could ever have imagined. At our worst, good is only one decision away." (that, quite frankly, blew me away.)

Well, that is only the first chapter! I know, good stuff.
The second chapter is on initiative.
Here is where I am struggling.
I referred to choices and decisions I am going to have to make in some earlier posts...
and throughout the past couple of weeks,
they've just been very present and foremost in my mind.
Well, while reading all of this, of course I'm thinking about these decisions!

So then comes the part about...we, as humans, can do nothing to thwart God's sovereignty.
Right. I agree with that.
So, whatever decisions we make....can do nothing to mess up God's will.
Ok, and now I'm just thinking "out loud" here.
So does that mean everything is predestined???
I mean, I fully believe God gave us free will.
But, if God knew we were ultimately going to follow Him...and THAT was his sovereign plan...and nothing can mess up his sovereignty...did we ultimately even have a choice?

And bigger plan aside, what about the smaller plans....
If we're following God, and if we're in line with God's will...
everything we do will coordinate with that, right?
McManus quite bodly even states,
"To put it crassly, when you are madly in love with God, you can do whatever you want."
That one stopped me.
Where does our human nature come into play at this point?
What about our sin?
Yes, when we're madly in love with God, our desires become HIS desires...
but we're not perfect.
Surely, there is going to be imperfect desire, and to act upon that desire would be sin,
and so....is that sin part of God's plan????

lfkjagjl;gjkl'agjalgjka;gjka.
yes, ^ thats my opinion on things.
and growing up in an extremely conservative household,
making choices that are out of the ordinary and could possibly ruin God's plan for my life
is WRONG.WRONG.WRONG. and all my upbring is SCREAMING at me,
to play it safe, don't go somewhere where you can get burned!!!!!!!!!!!

so then the next paragraph that gets to me is this one
"Those men and women whose lives you admire, who somehow seem to live life to the fullest, would probably be the first to tell you they are no different from you and me. It's not about talen or giftedness or intelligence; its about moving out of passivity into activity." (again, emphasis mine)
earlier, he stated it much more succinctly,
"just do something" and "take initative"

so....i'm going to bed last night...
and i'm thinking about all of this and i'm feeling so...
scrambled!!!
choices.choices.choices.choices!!!
ok, just do something.
its that simple.
i want the heart of God, and I am seekin God's character...
all i have to do is move.
easy enough, right??

so...i wake up this morning,
i shower,
i pray..."God...help me make sense of all of this!"
and God...
being a humorous God... :)
well, He gives me THIS in our morning devotional...
first line...BAM!

"waiting quielty is not what most of us do best. we prefer to be activitsts...."
WHAT???????????? GOD! this is not making things clearer!!
so, i read on, and you know,
its talking about don't take the easier path (believe me, 'just doing something' wouldnt be),
decisions are rarely instantaneous,
its against our nature to wait, and....
we must let Him take the initiative by preparing the way before us."
(ok, remember mcmanus is saying...take initiative...my devo is saying let God take initiative...can you understand why i'm getting conflicting messages here??)
the quote of the day says
"simply wait upon Him. In doing so, we shall be directed, supplied, protected, corrected, and rewarded." - vance havner

ok God.
what in the world are you telling me?
so...here is the deal.
I'm going to stop the chaos!
i truly desire the Lord's will in my life. I desire the passion of a life that is lived for Him.
and so I am cutting the world out.
for a week, I am not goin to watch any tv shows (other than the news),
or listen to any secular music (goodbye rihanna!),
or even read any books (other than school).
i'm going to pour myself into His word....
immerse myself in worship music.
and get peace.
peace that surpasses all understanding.

feel free to ask me how i'm doing to keep me accountable.
if i slip up, i'm going to start the week over.
i just want God.
thats it.

3.25.2009

||so happy together||

tony is coming in this weekend :D
howeverrrrr i'm going to be pretty darn high the whole time.
i'm getting all four wisdom teeth removed.
i'm really nervous,
but i'm so glad i'm finally getting them out!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

3.20.2009

||hurt||

i just found out yesterday that my family has been saying some pretty mean things about me.
when i heard it...the first words out of my mouth were 'i dont care'.
and then i burst into tears.

it hurts,
knowing that my family thinks that poorly of me.
i don't know why i have such a people pleasing complex.
i hate for people to be dissatisfied, or unhappy with me,
and heaven forbid they disapprove.
i hate it.
ever since i was a little girl,
all i wanted was for people to like me.

after crying for about an hour....
i just laid on my bed.
i started praying
and i realized...
God knows my heart.
He knows what i have and i have not done.
i realized, that there is no need for me to justify myself
because i am already justified by jesus christ.
there is no way i can ever prove to these women that my actions are pure,
because if there are looking for a reason to gossip, they will.
all i can do is try to live beyond reproach.

but i just realized...
can i handle it?
if i choose to make a life decision that may seem wrong to everyone else,
can i handle the disapproval that i know my entire family is going to throw at me?
but why does it matter?
it shouldn't.
but why does it.
they're not living my life,
they're not going to regret my mistakes.
i will.

i just want peace that surpasses all understanding.

3.19.2009

||ramblings||

i like to be in control.
i want to know that what is supposed to be in front of me,
will be in front of me.
when i don't know what is going on,
i feel blind. and scared.

making decisions that involve risk, the unknown,
and possibly disaproval,
scare me witless.
i don't want to be there.
but i'm tired of being here.
in a place where, even though i know what is going on,
i want to cry everytime i have to do this again.
i enjoy adventure,
i enjoy exploring new territories.
i want to be what God has called me to be.
but that means letting go. that means not being in control.
that means letting God.

for those of who actually read this...
please be praying that God will open doors where they are supposed to be open,
and shut them where they are not.
and most of all...please pray that i will have wisdom.

_____________________________________
on another note,
my dad sent out an email to my mom telling her about his trip to costa rica.
he is loving every second of it!
yesterday, they were able to go minister to some people out in the mountains,
who have just been through a devasting earthquake.
he said he couldn't believe that in the midst of that tragedy,
every single person had a smile on their face.
it really made an impact on him.
he loved it up there, and he hopes to have an opportunity to go back.

and my parents are missing each other.
neither of them could sleep through the night!
its so cute :)

3.17.2009

||gifts & haircut||

tony got back from spring break in new york
and we exchanged gifts.
i made him this sweet pirate chest,
that i don't have pictures of.
i painted the top red, and put a pirate flag on it.
then i burned some gold paper and made a 'treasure map'
and wrote
'6 kisses for everyday you were gone,
200 pennies for everytime i missed you...x5,
and the best treasure of all, my heart'
and i put 6 chocolate kisses in the chest
i spray painted 200 pennies gold
and i painted a black heart with gold 'stitching'
and wrote 'forever yours'.
i'll take pictures next time i'm in SA.
i got a huge martini glass from the M&M store
and also...this shirt :)



thank you babes.
he came over sunday morning,
and we went grocery shoppping together
and i made a hugggggeeee breakfast!!!

pancakes, bacon, cinnamon, huevos rancheros, tortillas, and gingerale with pom mango juice.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.


i got a new haircut!!
i'm not sure if i like it. i do and i don't. its definitely different! i realized though it was probably not the smartest time to get that style because summer is coming and i have no way to pin my bangs up! ahhh! but they'll grow out pretty quickly, im sure. i don't know that i'd ever get them done this way again :)