breathe

there are so many things

that are heavy on my heart.

but i am crippled in my words

and hindered by fear.

this is me.

in all my imperfection.

i am clumsy,

i am weak,

i am human.

but within all of this,

i am beautiful

because i know how to love.

because i am willing to be vulnerable

becuase i am willing to take a risk

because my trust is in jesus christ.

i am on this 

wonderfulpainfulexcitingcolorfulbreathtaking

rollercoaster called life.

and there is this immense emotion called

fear

that continues to try to stop me 

from enjoying the ride.

after all i've been through

after all i have been told

i still have a desperation to know 

that love still prevails.

that there is a trust that cannot be broken

that despite brokenness, 

there can be healing.

let your face shine on your servant; 

       save me in your unfailing love.